I NEED to drop this course. But I'm absolutely terrified of bringing it up to them...aahh...dilemma :(

Day 5: the worst part is not being able to eat. like i said, recovery would fucking SUCK. >_<

My wisdom teeth finally stopped hurting! I don't know for how long. My surgery is going to be in the end of July. Right before Heritage days! :( I hope I can make it out to heritage days without a puffy face, eeks. Too bad it's not on the end of June when my dad's parents are visiting! hehe.

Deedee is in Vegas! I hope she has a great time there! I am SO gonna creep the fuck out of her pictures.

I haven't been in a great mood lately.
My wisdoms are coming in and everytime I move my mouth, my tongue cuts against my right side of my wisdom tooth...it's like that one is coming out in a shape of a sword! It's pretty frustrating because I can't really eat too much of anything or else my mouth gets really sore. Ugh. I'm also dreading the surgery because of the recovery and that wasting time in between.
Seeing everyone eat a lot of food and me not being able to eat a nice big juicy prime rib because of my stupid wisdom teeth is really making me pretty cranky these days..

1.5 weeks till freedom! ...Freedom for a week. And then back to the grind. The madness never ends. :[ Oh well.

I'm stoked to start doing outdoor activities. I'm starting to get a little fat, ahahah and it's starting to bug me. Work those pounds off & eat healthier for more than half of the week, Rebecca! You're slacking off!!

I hate it when girls complain about being fat when they don't do anything about it.
It's like "waaah, I'm sitting on my fat ass and being unhealthy."
Uhhhh, there's this thing they have called exercising and healthy eating/dieting. Oh and maybe a little bit of willpower ; ]
Get with the program, people. We aren't in America.

If you don't make the effort to talk to me or anything in any form, I won't either.
I'm sick of one-way streets. It takes what? 2 minutes max to throw me a txt/call me/write on my wall?
Srsly, people. Tsk tsk.
I'm always doing things and trying to stay in contact with people & whatnot when they won't even put in half of the effort to do anything.
Relationships take two people for one to work -- and this applies to friendships. I don't think this is asking for much every few weeks or so. Likesrsly.

I had one of the most FUCKED UP things happen to me last night.

I was awake in bed, but my eye were closed. Then all of a there was an animation in my head, like a movie playing..  except..i was awake.  This freaked me out me the fuck out. Then I realized I was dreaming, while awake!  And I got really scared because I couldn't move my body due to 'sleep paralysis'. 

Then I got out of that animated part and I saw lights here and there and felt a constant chill on my right arm (it was over the blanket). And this was while I was trying to get out of that sleep paralysis mode!

It was quite the experience, a scary one, as well.

It's so pathetic how some guys can't be friends with girls if they find out they have no chance with the girl.  It's SO fucking lame if guys are only guided by the chance of 'Oh I might be able to get with her or something to that level with her' later on and can't just be friends for the friendship factor.
And then they find out they have no chance with you and stop talking to you. That makes me really really angry . 
I guess you could say, ideally you'd befriend someone for being friends and then whatever happens later on happens.

...Is a platonic level of friendship that hard to achieve with the opposite sex?

Selfish fucking pigs.

I had the SOMETHING AMAZING introduced to me a few days ago.

WAFFLE FRIES.

Unfortunately, nowhere here carries them! So you'd have to make them @ home or something.
It's an American thing really, since no one Canadian really has ever heard of them. >< Haha.



Don't those look like they ooze goodness out of them?! Damn you Americans. I'm totally jealous that you have chain fast food restaurants that carry these!


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Ahh I better start working out if I want to keep up my eating habits & stay in shape.  I worry that I might be getting fat/am already fat-ish. Haha. Boourns!! :[

i LOVE dining.

i'm not exactly sure why, but i think it's kind of a turn off when a guy has a closed mind about food.

maybe because i've been raised to have an open mind and try everything. i mean, i'd like to think that i have quite an open mind when it comes to food. of course, there is certain stuff that i will draw the line at. like raw insects or whatnot o_O. 
but other than that, i love adventuring out of the norm for trying out different types of food though.

but then again, this IS redneck country, lol. people aren't comfortable leaving their comfort zone when it comes to food, so they just stick with what they know they like.

I'm becoming intolerant of people who are unreliable or keep me hanging...!!
You fucking waste my time. Don't bother talking to me or making plans with me, if you aren't sure if you can go through with it.  It is a HUGE pet peeve. 

Do NOT agree to something if you aren't sure if you can make it. That's just plain out inconsiderate and you waste other people's time. It's bullshit, really.

And yes, I understand that, something comes up unexpectedly causing you to not be able to make it to places.  But there are times when you are just being a total FLAKE.
So FUCK OFF you stupid unreliable pricks.

Ugh, parents are fighting...what a great xmas. 
I've never felt so lonely at this time...and no one to take me in...

Oh well...

Merry Xmas to everyone else! Hope you're all having a better xmas than I.

These are the sexiest sandals ever! I love them.




A side-note rant:

What are asiaphiles? Well, according to urban dictionary:

	asiaphile
	A non-asian male who prefers asian women. This attraction is based on shallow perceptions and media stereotypes of asian women.

Aka someone who has a bad case of yellow fever and limit themselves only to dating asian women.  And attempt to befriend the most amount of asian girls as friends.

I think it's fucking disgusting how they befriend & categorize girls just based on their 'fetish'.   They don't see past the surface, let alone even see the chick as something more than an 'asian chick'.  So fucking narrow-minded.  Ugh.  Of course, this can go both ways. Asian girls can just see caucasian males as 'token white boys' or 'honkies' or whatever. But I think it's more common that it's the other way around.

Random Shit I fucking Hate

1. Gladiator Sandals
These just ooze ugly. Um, Gladiator called and want their sandals back...?


2. Leggings as Pants
"Leggings are NOT pants!" -Blair Waldorf, Gossip Girl


3. Girls who wear a darker lipliner color than their lipstick color.
Seriously, CHOLA much?!


4. Completely Drawn-on Eyebrows
You look like a drag queen. Again, see #3 for example.

5. Crocs
...

http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio1/alcohol/2008/calories.shtml

Awesome widget to see how much calories you drank. o.O

Soo Hasbro made this awesome toy called Spyshot 6 from Transformers. Check'er outtt.

(Ps, it's not an actual camera)

I saw Twilight last night & I thought it was pretty rad! (Possibly because I came into the movie with such low expectations expecting it to be a flop...and no, I'm NOT a fangirl since I had no idea what the movie was gonna really be about.) Robert Pattinson plays the part of Edward Cullen so damn well...not to mention how fucking GORGEOUS he looks. He has this mysterious allure in the movie and his eyes were pitch black as a vampire (he wore contacts since his eyes are normally blue). The movie was definitely not worth the hype but, I'd give it a 7.1/10.
And yeah, I'm not gonna lie, he makes me melttt. Fucking epitome of GORGEOUS.

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Holidays are approaching soon! I'm trying to get into the spirit by drinking eggnog & whatnot. I'm so stoked!
On a side note, I find that all the men in Cascada's music videos are fucking HOTT. That bitch has good taste in men. ;D

Speaking of hot guys, I've compiled a Top 5 Hottest Guys list (well according to me anyways :P) :

TOP 5 HOTTEST GUYS

5) Chace Crawford
Okay, so I'll admit, he DOES look like Zac Efron (a way more manlier one, pahaha.), but he's fucking SMOKING and pretty at the same time hahaha. I love his piercing blue eyes & the way he styles his hair. Love him in Gossip Girl!


4) Ryan Sheckler
Okay, so, it's already fucking hot that he skateboards, since I've always found it skater guys hot, but seriously LOOK AT HIM. And he has a piercing on his ear, hand in hand with his 6-pack from fucking skateboarding...that is fucking hot and is list-worthy. 

(pull it down a little moar pls. :P bahaha)

3) Josh Hartnett
I've always loved Josh Hartnett since I was little. He has this fucking sexy look going on with his strikingly dark eyes + dark hair. Yummy.

(I'd spend 40 days and 40 nights with him..)
 

2) Justin Hartley
He plays Green Arrow in Smallville. Not only does he have a fucking nice body, but everything else about him is dayumnn fine. HAHA there's a server at Mr. Mike's that looks like him too. *drool* WHY DON'T I GO THERE MORE?!!?! I love blonde hair like that...I love his character on Smallville as well. Everything about him, WOW just wow. He was runner-up to #1. Still pretty fucking close!

(i'd rather cupid shoot an arrow in his heart for me than him shooting arrows to the bad guys! )

1) Tom Welling
Okay, so it was definitely a toss-up between Tom Welling and Justin Hartley for me..but in the end I chose Tom Welling. He ALSO has a fucking nice body. He plays Clark Kent on Smallville alongside with Justin Hartley. Hm, maybe I just fell in love with the character he plays, since there's nothing hotter than a Superman who looks like this.

(save me....please? ~_~ )